Since this is my first blog I feel like I need to explain all that is going on in our lives so that our later posts will make sense....
For a year and half now we have been trying to conceive a child, but have unfortunately been diagnosed with infertility. It's something that you have no clue how bad it hurts unless you are going through it yourself. Monthly you are left heartbroken and in tears when you find out that it was another unsuccessful month. This past month has been ecspecially hard because it was our first big fertility treatment and it had been exactly a year since I did get pregnant, but lost it in January. I am on some medication that stimulates my body and then this month we did a procedure called an IUI (aka artificial insemenation). It took an emotional toll on my emotions and body and I guess it made it worse being around Christmas, ecspecially when I found out it didn't work the day before Christmas Eve. It hurts, but I'm okay and so is Jamie. We both trust in God and His great plan for our lives!! Trust me, there are times where I do not understand, but I still trust and continue to pray for peace and understanding. Right now we are debating on next months plan. We have 4 options.... 1. do another IUI, 2. save the money for the IUI and apply it to IVF, 3. go on Lupron for 6 months (a medication that will basically send me into menopause temporarily), or 4. just take a break from everything. Right now I'm leaning towards the break! I think Jamie and I need it and I'm not ready to go into menopause. I have also been considering the adoption route. Looking at some websites and requesting information. On Christmas Eve we spent the evening with my Aunt and Uncle (who were also diagnosed with infertility)and their son Sam who was adopted from China. His personality is amazing and he loves his parents more than anything. Spending time him made me think that adoption might be in my heart. But right now that is just something we are looking at. Everything is so expensive, it's hard to make a decision on something like that! I know that God is going to lead us where we need to go and He will bless us with so much more than we ever asked for! Please continue to pray for us and our journey! More than anything we need peace, understanding and patience!!! =) God bless you all!!!
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We love you both and it touched our hearts to hear you speak so fondly of adoption and Sam!Everytime we watch the videos you gave him he says "Summer and Aimee gave that to me"!!
You and Jamie are an inspiration to a lot of people. Your positive attitude through all of this is amazing. Emily, Sam, and I are very lucky to have friends like you guys in our lives. God bless you guys! :) We love yall!
Summer~
Your blog touched my heart so much. I'm sure my lil sis Amanda has told you all that we went through in beginning our special family. I completely understand your yearning, praying, hoping, heartbreak, rollercoaster. Kevin and I found out that we could not have children the exact same day that Amanda called to say she was pregnant with Mallory. I was so excited for her and sad for me. It still makes me cry to think of it. It turned out to be a wonderful gift in the end. She was carrying her first child at the exact same time that Jack's birthmother was carrying him. I experienced his development through Amanda.
Kevin read a devotion exactly nine months before Jack was born about God's plan, even before we had attended adoption seminars, selected an agency, or even been matched with Jack's birthmother. I saved it on my fridge and read it daily. I still have it in Jack's things for when he is old enough to understand God's plan for our special family. I will dig it out and post it to your blog for you this week. Of course, Kevin is the most wonderful man I've ever met, and I'd love to have a silly little blue eyed boy. I can tell you, though, that there is not one other child in this world I could love more than Jack. He was born in our hearts. I continued to pray for a miracle from God to have a silly little Kevin up until October when I had cancer surgery. I had prayed before and told God that if it wasn't in his plan just to let me know and I'd move on. He did. I'm so happy to hear that you are considering adoption. If you would like to talk more about it over the phone, just ask Amanda for my number. I know your family adopted internationally, you may be interest in hearing a domestic adoption story.
My blog is a little out of date. I keep up a myspace and facebook as well. But you can go back to read about our journey though adoption in the July 2005 through April 2006 archives.
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