Okay so this is pretty random, but I wanted to post it anyway. Throughout this whole infertility process I have really discovered a lot about myself, my marriage and my faith. If you want to test all of those...try infertility! It will push you to the max!! I have learned how strong Jamie and I are and how blessed I am to have him as a husband. I've learned that I can push myself far further than I could have ever imagined. And last but not the least...I know that God is with me every step of the way. In the midst of our hardest times, Jamie and I were both saved and baptized together. How amazing is that?? Every aspect of our lives have changed since we were both saved including our outlook on our future plans. You know how they always say to give your worries and fears to the Lord and He will handle them for you? Well I only halfway gave them. I felt like maybe I still needed to do some work on the side to help the process along and look where that got me! (Still not pregnant)! So I have officially given everything to Him in hopes that He continues to guide me on which direction I need to go. I have stopped ALL medications and procedures! I know, crazy right?? But to me...it's the best thing for me right now! I'm tired of crying every month, I'm tired of worrying about procedures working and overall...I'm just tired! I want my life back!! And thats what I'm working on now! I'm getting back into working out again which I had stopped in hopes of being pregnant. Working out has always been a passion and bonding time for Jamie and I. And lately...it's just been Jamie's passion! So I've started back with that! Since I can't have a big round preggo belly....I'll do my best to work on the one I've got for now! =) Yesterday in church our preacher did a sermon on "Energy for Life" and it talked about the Fullness, blessings and Gospel of Christ. When he was on the "Blessings of Christ" section he said something that really hit home to me. He said that we should not focus on the past or future, but always on today so that we can clearly see all the blessings of Christ. Which is SO true! I have been so focused on getting pregnant and having a family that I have not seen any of the blessings occuring in my life here lately!!!! Anyways, that is my life story for today! Sorry it was so long! I hope you all have a wonderful and blessed day!!!
"This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." - Psalm 118:24
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